Much love to you bro. I remember for a while after I went through that flood it felt like there was a period of shock. It's weird not having all of those attachments and things. They can feel almost like ghost limbs for a while. It's not that you would ever actually be doing anything with them, but somehow knowing they aren't there just feels off. Then the realization sets in that there's nothing holding you in place anymore. You and Anka could just hop on a plane and fly around the world and not have to worry about when you're returning etc. It gets better bro. <3