lIFE CAN SUCK SO BAD SOMETIMES

I CANT BELIEVE THE SHIT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH IN THE LAST 2 YRS. I WAS INJURED AT WORK WHILE TRYING TO DO MY JOB. I LITERALLY SAVED A GUY FROM SMASHING HIS HEAD AGAINST A CONCRETE FLOOR BY PLACING MY BODY IN FRONT OF HIM TO TRY TO CATCH HIM. I HAVE BEEN PUNISHED EVER SINCE. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY??? I THOUGHT I DID THE RIGHT THING, BUT INSTEAD LIFE HAS GIVEN ME TOTAL CRAP. I DON'T GET IT. I HAD TO APPLY FOR DISABILITY AS A RESULT. THE END TO A 21 YR CAREER. THE TRUE HARDACHE HAS BEEN DEALING WITH THE OFFICE OF WORKERS COMPENSATION WHICH IS AN ORGANIZATION IN THE USA THAT IS SUPPOSED TO HELP YOU WHEN ONE GETS HURT AT WORK. THEY JUST WANT TO TELL YOU THAT YOU WEREN'T HURT THAT BAD OR THAT YOU WERE EXPERIENCING THE PAIN YOU HAVE BECAUSE OF SOMETHING ELSE THAN A 200LB MAN FALLING ON TOP OF YOU LIKE A FALLING TREE. I AM SO SICK WITH THIS. NOW I APPLY FOR SOCIAL SECURITY DISABILITY AND THEY DON'T BELIEVE YOU EITHER. THEN YOU APPLY FOR WORK DISABILITY AND THEY DO THE SAME. WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON? I WOULD LOVE TO GO BACK TO MY LIFE BEFORE THIS, BUT MY BODY WONT LET ME. I AM SO SICK OF PEOPLE NOT BELIEVING ME WHEN I TELL THEM MY PELVIS DISLOCATES CHRONICALLY WHICH STABS ME IN MY CROTCH AND CAUSING NERVE PAIN THROUGHOUT THE PUDENDAL NERVE DISTRIBUTION. I SINCERELY ASK GOD TO HELP ME AND HELP THEM SEE WHAT THEY ARE DOING TO ME. IF I HAD THE ABILITY, I WOULD THINK OF DOING SOMETHING TO THE PEOPLE THAT ARE BASICALLY KILLING ME, BUT I DON'T HAVE IT IN ME. I AM LATE ON LAND TAXES, MORTGAGE, BILLS. I DON'T GET IT?? FOR DOING RIGHT BY THIS VETERAN???? WHY??