Hello @destroyed. I know deep depression and the highest of highs, I don't know if that makes me bi-polar and these days I find myself much more balanced. If I can offer one small piece of advice (please don't hate me for it) Drugs don't work. They cloud the mind and fuck with your bodies' natural rhythms; I know that the drugs are designed to correct imbalances in the body but I believe that the best way to do this is to learn the root cause of your feelings. It is a hard road, believe me that I know. You are not alone and you are DEFINITELY NOT GARBAGE! I have seen your art and this cannot come from garbage. I wish I could be there to help you see the value within yourself but in the end it is only you who can do this. Although we don't know each other, I feel your pain and just want you to know that you are not alone. Keep posting your art on here and believe the praise, feel the joy it brings to others. You will overcome these challenges and be a stronger and more amazing person because of the struggle.