Im so sorry u are going thru this, anytjing that emotionally, trumatically hurts you, is much harder to heal than a physical pain...i will keep you in my thoughts. I have my own experiences with emotional truama, and i know how tough the healing process is...You are stonger than you know...you accomplished a lot w your code project.....dont give up..a better door is waiting to be opened...and it will, when u least expect it😊