Lost

hi, so I am lost.
I'm in the 11th grade, and currently going to finish school, the meaning of life to me was becoming a programmer and all I really wanted to do was work as an IT specialist

I failed the grade and I'm currently repeating, I tried and tired and tried and I just can't get it right
I'm doing the same subjects and everything and now I'm just...stuck

I recently got my report card and I was on the break of suicide, I've lost all confidence and I really don't have a purpose in life

I want to drop most of my subjects, what's the point

Help