Wow, not every day I see people share stories like that on Steem. You are right though like they say sometimes the only way out is through I am glad you are in a better mental state now. Also, you are an amazing writer, an inspirational human being. If you want something that would put a smile on your face, check this out:
https://steemit.com/steemit/@rajesh-fashek/end-of-2017