I have always kind of lived on my own terms but I guess for a period there I slipped down the rabbit hole of conformity and sucking it up too much out of fear of falling into the poorhouse again lol. My younger years I always did what I wanted, even chased the dream of being a touring musician and did that for a long time but it lead me to the wrong type of lifestyle and as I got older I tended to just conform and do average jobs to better my life. What I didn't get what that I could chase dreams and also live right....so know that I found that blend I am now off chasing new dreams full time again.