The last 10 years, I wanted to commit suicide because of unrequited love, but I achieved it!

Ha I remember my childhood. When I watched the drama on TV, and didn't understand why adults suffer from love. It was strange and funny. Until I fell in love with 15 years.

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At 15, I was groomed as my friends and I have had short hair. Frankly, I looked like a boy;) of Course in this hard to fall in love and I fall in love with man older than me for 8 years.

Now I understand that men and women love well-groomed, beautiful people. So I didn't have a chance. I was mildly rebuffed and even mocked my feelings. Of course I took it very hard. Remember that night, I first time in my life I got drunk( and the last) took a knife and more than an hour sitting with him in his hands. Wanted to commit suicide, but I called mom, and in that moment, I realized I must live for her.

I'm very stubborn, so I pursued this man for about 3 years. Not realizing that the obsession will only ruin it even more. got calls and texts. But I was very sick, I haven't seen the meaning of life. All life have become dull and boring.

Many years have passed, I calmed down a bit, stopped being Intrusive and took them. 5 years ago we met, talked, we had fun together. Now we have a relationship, it is difficult to say what, but I still love this man. Love for 12 years..