You are responsible for your own happiness.

I was just thinking about my parents and how shitty of a relationship they have. They are constantly bickering over nothing and are incredibly negative because we are broke and bankrupt. It’s almost always an argument about money. At the end of the day...money and dollar bills are..just fucking pieces of paper. What ever happened to thick and thin? I’ve thought about what kind of relationship I would like to have one day. This relationship I dream of resembles almost nothing of my parents. I’m realizing my depression and the low confidence I’ve been feeling lately has something to do with the fact I’ve been living with people that A: Don’t have any respect for eachother and B: have low confidence and live in fear. Of course I don’t blame them for all my problems, but I am a firm believer you are who you’re around most of the time. My parents were both doing great at one time, but now all they do is dwell and dwell and panic and live in fear and argue.

it’s hard to keep yourself together when everyone around you is falling apart

I’ve had an epiphany, in sorts. I’ve had enough watching them suffer everyday. I want to start my life. I’m 26 and I’m only getting older and I’m sure you are too. I don’t want to do this anymore. I think the hardest part for me and for many people feeling this way is letting the close family or old friends that are holding you back go. They no longer serve you for the good. Just. Let. Go. Some people are content as crabs at the bottom of the bucket. Leave the people that are emotionally infatuated with the negative aspects of life behind. I don’t blame them but I refuse to drown with you in your sinking ship. I choose to swim. I can’t save everyone. Nobody can. I can only save myself and my own happiness. I think everyone deserves that. It’s your life and dude, for fucking real; at the end of the day you only have your own damn self to count on.

You’re happiness is solely your responsibility

We really have one life to live, and in that present moment. In that focused and zoned-in state of mind, and on that little face of your wristwatch: this is for real. This is your happiness. Right now. I’ve watched people (especially my parents) live completely and utterly out of present state. This is no way of living. If you’re constantly dwelling on the past or living in the future...youll miss the beauty of what’s actually in front of you - your life. The best blessing anyone could ever ask for. According to huffingtonpost.com, the estimate for you actually even being born is about “one in four-hundred trillion.” Just being alive is a miracle.

Putting this into perspective, this is what only $1 trillion dollars would look like (keep in mind these are stacks of $100 bills)

Now multiply that by four-hundred.

The simple fact, is proof enough, we are given this gift called “Life” and we probably shouldn’t waste it being anything but happy.

THE PRESENT

Let’s unwrap it. Let us no longer live life negatively. Let us let go of our ego, let’s forget about the girl that turned us down, the job we didn’t get, and the money that we don’t have. Let’s choose to be happy regardless. Let us LAUGH at OURSELVES and stop BEING SO FUCKING SERIOUS. Let us relax even when we think everything is going to fall apart...

....because it will, and nothing lasts forever. All good things come to an end.

That’s life, in a nutshell, ladies a gents.

The best part of life is surviving dark storms we never thought we could, to finally make it through the night into sunlight . Climbing that never ending staircase to make it to the top, with beaten and battered legs. Raising your hands like Rocky Balboa, because hard times make champions out of the weak and weary. Happiness is drowning in huge ocean of doubt...and in the midst of the chaos; learning to swim.