Hi, @icuclose. I think that we might relate, a lot. My girl and I also come from a rough past. For us, it was years of drug addiction, among other things. Of course, those things were driven by underlying issues, but we are 123 days clean today. Steem community has helped us tremendously with that and with a whole lot of self-exploration. I didn't write much, before. I was angry at the world, and I was very hurt. If you will, take a moment to check out some of my stuff. You may relate with a lot of it. The part in this, where you talk about being trapped in your head, struck me in a special way. If you will, please read "Who Are YOU?" You can find it in my blog. Thanks for your post, and keep it up. This place is life-changing!