2. What shall I do for a month?
I've been with my partner the whole of the Christmas holidays. It's been a great distraction from the depression and fear of leaving. But I can't go into February and everyone I know is now working.
Also I only recently started my job so people are confused and asking questions I can't possibly answer without starting from 4 years back or maybe even when depression first hit 16 years ago.
Being alone is something I'm finding painful at the moment and I have the next 5 weeks mostly alone.