My love My life

Hey steemians..I am writing this coz i need ur precious advice.
I am in love with this girl since 2011. It all started with a prank call which my best friend made to her without knowing her at all. It was fun in those days as we used to play prank on most weekends when we were boozing together. In all these six years we had our ups n downs and had several fights and she broke up wimme many times.. But she came back to me until this time and its been two months now. Its not that I dud not try. In fact i tried a lot this time more than earlier but i believe she has made up her mind this time. I have a regular software job which i have to do to run myself . But my passion is trading- equities,derivatives,commodities,forex n now this new thing crypto-currency. I am not rich. I win , I lose. When i win i party, when i lose i still party coz i believe that we have this one life and we cant mourn over petty grief. But i am sad now for a longer period this time. I am not being able to party/ booze or enjoy life. Now let me tell you why she left me this time. She wants me to give up trading and focus on my career in software coz i have no savings as when i win i spend d money travelling and buying things for her n myself and when i lose , i lose.

Do i quit trading coz she will not take any other shit this time. Or do i continue to chase my dream, my passion and leave it upto the Almighty.

Thanks