I like that acronym, S-O-S. Also known as the Save Our Souls symbol.
I would argue to consider your trial and errors you call failures to be progress. You are learning what works and what doesn't, and as you can tell, there's people out there that will sell you that shiny object and promise you this and that, only to find out that none of it will come easy, it all takes work. We've all been there, the thing that seperates you from another person though is you are willing to try. Most people won't ever try, it's too scary. Keep the vision in mind, and you will find a way.
Thanks for the words of encouragement. Yes, I'm not stopping my journey. I may be a bit disheartened now but I will pull myself together and get back on that horse. :)