My Story - After what I've learned, I can no longer trust my husband

I am 34 years old. My family is 8 years old, my husband is 45, our son has a seven-year-old, beautiful boy, goes to school and is fond of football, makes more progress in sports.

Before meeting with her husband, I worked in a promising position in a very good company, I earned well. When I met my husband, I fell in love with him very much, left my job and, at her husband's request, devoted myself to her family's desire.

My husband believed, there were no secrets from him, I wanted to live one life for two. Then, after 3 years of life, I learned that my husband hid his daughter, who was born of a civil wife even before our meeting. The husband hid, and when I found out (after reading the sms on the phone), he denied for a very long time.

After this incident, I completely lost confidence in him, something was missing, some kind of sincerity in the relationship. A little later I began to suspect my husband of adultery, there was evidence of that. I still love him, I find him an excuse all the time. From the husband began to depend completely, on hands the grandmother with huge consequences after a stroke. He supports financially and her.

I do not trust him completely. When such deceptions began to be revealed, I secretly watched his phone, because there was no more trust. It irritated him. There is no trust, everything is lost. How to be?