Sorry to hear you feel sad and that your job is exhausting. I can totally understand your wish to make crochet for a living. But I have to admit I can't imagine how to make this function (for me)? Clothes are so cheap here and yarn so expensive... I think it's easier to write patterns, because you can sell one pattern multiple times. But maybe the market is different in another country. I cross my fingers that you get a chance to make your situation better. Your crochet is beautiful!!!