I don't know how, but i really need to ask for help.

Hello all,

Im new here, and new to social internet sites, so forgive my clumsiness.

As a forward notice- every fiber of my being is screaming "shut up and take care of your own problems!". And, if possible i would. However, right now i cant even look myself in the face.

This is not the type of things i tell strangers, this isnt even the type of thing i say to family.
I do not ask for help. I'm the guy who always says "ill be fine". I am not fine.
I am on the brink of losing my ability to provide for my family. I am on the brink of losing my home.
I dont expect sympathy, i know many people have lost more than i stand to lose - and i accept it, it's my doing that got me here. And i own it.
I am not wealthy by any means however im still proud of the little i have to call home- a mobile home on 3/4 acre in northern wisconsin. We(my lady and our son) moved in after closing on a land contract almost three years ago. Its been a hell of a time getting going, and right when i thought i saw light at the end of the tunnel, it turned out to be catastrophic failure after failure due to my nature of trusting people.
I was told i would have 50-60k worth of work over the course of the first 2 years. Yeah- that didnt happen. Then the home we purchased turned out to be a money pit that previous tenants(it was a rental property) completely trashed. Im a carpenter by trade and am damn good at it, however with no work , i cant very well do much to improve things. To compound my grief, lately ive been getting 10-20 calls for estimates for work. Only to find that its friends of competitors burning my time while learning my billing rates. And now, not one-both of my trucks have broken down... I dont know how to look my wife in the face right now, my son is asking ME if I'm okay..
I dont even know what to say.

I know here on steemit, were supposed to remain positive and strong, but right now im falling apart.

I guess I'm just hoping this wave will break before i do. Any ideas? Any prayers? I'll take em.
Hell, even a good old fashioned slap I'd be okay with.
We might not know each other. We might not be friends , but im asking for help, of any you can spare.
Thanks people.
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I forgot to say, all questions will be answered with complete honesty. And i am thankful for all the advice and kind words.