Pain ,fear

PAIN... FEARS

Who could tell that beneath those smiles lies a hurting heart, fears and pain that just won't go away.
We carry them every where we go or maybe they move with us. Either way, we are knitted together. Somehow we even became a Pair. For it has been faithful to us all these years.
So even when everything seems to be going fine, you aren't happy because your heart has become accustomed to Pain, who has become realest than Love.

You try to hide the
Pain, after all you are in some secret relationship with him and look happy on the outside. But then you are terribly hurting inside.

Some fears you can't share for the fear of being misjudged, misinterpreted or even condemned.
Or maybe the effect you think it will have on people around, those who look up to you.

Hurtful memories kept flooding, the betrayals from loved ones makes it seem impossible to love again.

You've become a shoulder everyone can lean on except you.. So its just alright if you just bottle up the Pain. For he understands. He's seen you in your worst and still stayed even bringing you more of his kind (Pain)

Everytime, you wish you could get a feel of something different. Something that taste different from pain, fears. Even if it's temporal. But you are scared you can't handle whatever it is, that's if it comes.
Love has become just a word than a feeling.

Other times, you wish people can see past those smiles, the beautiful clothes, the make-up, the laughter and come to rescue.

Truth is.... You are still pain because you chose to. Because as much as pain has been faithful to you, you've been faithful to nurse and tender pain.

Maybe.... Just maybe if you open your heart a little. Smile not because you are happy but because it look good on you and wears you better than Pain.

Smile because youve got God.
Smile because of your family, they are more faithful than pain, if only you can see how much they love you. Open up your heart to the beautiful things around you, your friends, nature, the body of Christ or whatever it is that makes you smile.
Allow the Love to grow just like you allowed Pain.
Try reciprocating love. It's beautiful when you do that.

Remove the Mask and Be Happy because you deserve to be Loved and you are capable of loving in return.
So love. When you are exhausted love. Love hard. Because it's who you are.

You see, God is love. His love has been shared abroad in your heart. Be Happy.