I am not sure if I am happy but I am content. I think being content matters more than being happy. We all have moments in our lives in which we are happy and those in which we are sad, these I feel are mostly defined by the activities of others around us (or at least we tie them to that) and are episodic. I did not get the job I wanted therefor I am sad. I am in love today I am happy. Being content is deeper, it is knowing who you are and where you want to be in life, and being ok with being where you are now, working to get where you want to go and loving and serving others. Competition is part of human nature but we can never get to contentment if we are always striving to be better than others.