@tarazkp
First of all i am really sorry to hear about your situation, i wish you and your family all the best recovering and improvement in health possible.
I really appreciate you upvoting and answering to comments, thats why people (like me) actually are interested to really read what you are saying and thats how you build your own network/community/hard core of people, but not any people, it's people who are willing to give back. The way you are going, the values you are living, it is a carrying element of this platform, and if you see people ONLY feeding themselves esp. not at the start but when becoming dolphins an whales, this is what ruins the platform and even could make is crash. Sooner or later maybe @steemit or @ned may recognize your value to the platform and give you an upvote/support you, you never know. But i think it's less likely if you were someone who only is into the money by feeding himself.

I must however admit that it's a bad thing to stick too much to principles and good values getting so unflexible, that it doesn't help the case but only is done to keep the principles alive. Don't paint black and white, don't paint yourself into a corner, the result will be depression and depression leads to you being not able to provide for anyone anymore.
Don't let fear rule your life. Don't fear losing your community.
Communication is key. If you tell everyone you will be upvoting yourself for a month and then return back to your normal behavior, what's the problem? Everyone who reads will understand and not unfollow or smth if someone nags about link him your explanation and everythings fine.

Be good human, but don't be unflexible, as you only can help others if you have influence and be stable yourself.

Greetings to you and all the best for your family