I can relate to your post. Speaking personally, my beliefs are constantly changing over time. Im full of shit, a gullible scientist, a shallow philosopher, etc. I know i exist, i know that i feel, i know that i think...i would love to know reality on a deeper level, maybe one day i will. But for now and until then, i just try to be a descent human being, i try to do the right thing, and despite my insecurities and short comings i will try to become a better me.