This is a beautiful poem and very well written. Thank you for sharing so much of yourself. It takes a lot of courage to share, but it helps to bring us a little closer together in our shared humanity. I love that you've found love's spring in the midst of pain and sorrow.

The imagery of the "box" also reminded me of another poem by Mary Oliver called "The Uses of Sorrow":

"(In my sleep I dreamed this poem)

Someone I loved once gave me
a box full of darkness.

It took me years to understand
that this, too, was a gift."