Tears in Disguise

In a river of tears
I see you swimming for joy
While i hold the tears
You try to reach the ocean
A Sea of joy and motion
I couldn't care less for these emotions
You denied me the joy
And got me played like a toy
I now hold the pain
Which is less than i could attain
But way more than a sea of bane
There is no infinite mystery
That could disguise
Your capacity for a thousand lies
I now sit above your sea of lies
Where i can see a clear sunrise.