The hidden longing

Present you an instant release my anxiety
Present you a little drain on my load
I do not know what you're doing
I can only pray for you from a distance

Not a longing that hurt me
Fear of yourself that kills me
You know how afraid I am to lose you
And I realize it's all beyond my power

You know dear
I'm smiling to live my day without you
Although sometimes I can not tear my tears
I hope you're not ashamed
When you know tears sometimes accompany me

I know you have not disappeared for a long time
I know longer than this even I can live my time without you

But now ..
I miss you so much
Yes .. I miss you so much ..