Lost or Let Go

When I look upon lost relationships
I now notice my many slips
My many mistakes
Didn't do what it takes
Didn't really understand the stakes
At times insecure pride got in the way
"She deserved better than for me to stay
I didn't accomplish in time what I did say"
So I let her get away
Another time
More beautiful than any rhyme
When we cared, went back and forth
She made me higher than north
Things started great
Not much longer, I didn't hesitate
To ask her on a date
She said yes
It was nice, but I didn't impress
I was young,didn't know how to give my best
But still time with me she did invest
We smiled and had lots of fun
In time I screwed up with another perfect one
Mistakes here and there
Got upset and forgot how to care
I still think about her everywhere
To myself and others I have been unfair
Could have been such a beautiful life
Been the best husband to a wife
But at least they have still found love
Hopefully more than we ever could of
If that is the case
I don't mind being in this sad place
And will put a smile on my lonely face
Just to know she is happier
Than I would have ever made her
Maybe I was just meant as a catalyst
For some to find true happiness
And then there are those friends
With whom I so desperately wish I could make amends
Before this short life of ours ends