Heart By 6

I want to get to know you better
so that conversations with you have references and threads no one else gets

so that at cafes
they know us as regulars
the chairs remember the shape of our asses and they'll call it love
the tables remember to give us enough space to graw akward yet intimate

and as a boy struggling to find the words
looking for a way to talk to you
I wrote it down
so here

I love the way you blush, like watching mother nature let loose on a canopy of tree tops
that change of color signifying a change in season

and like the leaves
kissed by the autumn wind

Ive fallen for you

the earth damp and fragrant
the smell of compost and warmth

Ive fallen for you

like an imagery not native to the land I hail from
but grounded in where I was born

Ive fallen for you

Ive fallen for you

in the little game bilingual poems play
in matching the malay to the english
in a never ending train ride to nirvanareble

Ive fallen for you

in watching the seasons change from wet to dry
and wet again, of summer tees
and sweeter weather

Ive fallen for you

and like the moon in its want to keep face and pace
to the breath and spin
of the celestial bodies

I turn
hoping to wake up

                                                                 and face you

but I guess

I will not
I'll keep this feeling, this small feeling
and plant it in this small 4by6 plot of land that I call my heart

I will not feed it or let it hope
because there is nothing more painful
than falling in love with someone
who will not be there
to help pick you back up