Would you believe that I am a shy guy? Accepted myself as an outcast in my teens already. A difficult and tough life has taught me to rely only on myself and like you I study people and their quirks. Especially when they drop their masks and come crying for help.
But the main thing that I have learned is to beware of my right brained mind and to follow my heart.
You have done very well for yourself by accepting who and what you are and you have climbed the mountains in your life.
But I still think that we are total loners in life.
Blessings!