My First "Heroic Dose" Mushroom Trip

Heroic dose, a term coined by the late Terrance Mckenna, is a 5 gram dose of  psychedelic  mushrooms. It is a different experience then a 3 or 4 gram trip. When you take 5G's it's almost impossible to keep track of reality. 

I was a smoker before my trip. I had no intention or dessire to quit. I was super depressed from years of repressed memories and dark secrets building up. I didn't realize I was depressed though, I felt numb and like nothing could change. To make all that better I was also overweight and had destructive eating habits. I was eating way to much.

I knew something had to change. I knew this couldn't be all God had intended for me in this life, but i didnt know how to do anything about it. Depression is not just being sad, its being in a numb state of gray. Youre unable to let creative thought escape past the depression. 

I decided to do a heroic dose.

I took it in a tea form with lemon and honey. I went to this beautiful deep mental state and learned what I think is forgotten knowledge to modernman. You see life for what it really is. 

I was planning on laying in bed with my eyes shut but while years of emotions purged my heart my physical body also purged. The entire trip I was in the restroom. I have heard of people purging during ayahuasca but not on mushrooms.

On my heroic trip, I realized that I was consuming to much, Especially food. I felt the sufferings of all the extra animals that had to die for me to make it a double cheese burger. I'm not saying I turned vegan but I now respect the animals that have died for me to eat.

I quit smoking and vaping. I threw my vape out while I was still on the bathroom floor throwing up. I saw it in its true form. Evil cancer causing death stick. I felt so bad for the harm I caused my body by not giving a shit for so long. I was a smoker for 10 years.

And finally I had to make amends with those I've wronged. The main person being my wife. I hadn't been connecting with my wife on an emotional level for a long time. 

In turn mushrooms have given me my humanity back. I had been living in a state of only caring about myself and mushrooms woke me back up to real life. During the peak I was more sober then I have ever been.

I would recommend a strong psychedelic trip to anyone that would like to better themselves. If you are already taking medication I highly recommend against it. Mixing psychedelics with prescription medication can be very dangerous.