It's kind of a hard to answer question now you've thrown me into a thought whirlpool...

I still don't really get what a "shadow work" is, but it is not really hard to find myself sitting somewhere and ask "is it even possible to be a more terrible version of me". Although most of the times the idea just fades away after I realize that I have more deadlines to catch and a lot more other stuff to actually work on, it gets hidden and sometimes it comes up again...never ending cycle.

You can only fully stop a force if you try to stop it from a directly opposing direction (it's true according to physics), so maybe it is really important to really think through the whole thing again...