Hi @naymarth thank you for taking the time to comment. Yes it does feel often as though my mind betrays me, I have spent a few months now trying to alter my thought patterns and to start more practices that help me deal with it, it seemed on that day though, because the interview was such a big deal for me it really triggered my anxiety strongly. So this means i still have a long way to go, but old habits and conditioning take a long time to break the cycle so i will probably experience this lots more times until i can form new and improved mental habits. I think it is just good to share your story sometimes, so that other people who know what it feels like can realise that they are not alone, because that is one big problem we face when we feel like this, is that the mind also convinces us that not one else is like this, and everyone else can cope with life better than us. Just from the amount of comments i have received shows us that there are lots of people who do struggle with this, and we can support and help eachother x