Personal about me. Me and the guys.

Good afternoon.

If you read this.
That's me. Glad.
Very happy.
I'm very glad!

My name is Clara.
I have been fond of psychology since childhood. I mean, I was always interested in the questions - why do we live. For what we exist.

But this is not philosophy, because I was interested in this from a practical point of view.

I've never kissed boys.
I'm incredibly afraid of them.
I'm 21.

I came home after school and read romance in half with science fiction. It's such an explosive mixture.
Sometimes it seems to me that I'm from another planet.
Well, think for yourself - how it is possible in our time not even to kiss at the age of 20 with boys.
Who can believe this?
You READER believe that?
I would not have believed it.

It seems to me that this is not normal.
In the 18th century this was probably the norm. But now it's strange.
That's why I'm from another planet.
But sometimes I have friends guys.
And if they make some steps towards me like romance - then I immediately with horror tear all the contacts with them: (

I INTERESTINGLY WRITE?
IF THERE ARE BUGS IN THE TEXT - PLEASE FIX.
I NEED YOUR SUPPORT,

I really want to study psychology, and make this blog as a support to myself in the study of psychology. As a scholarship to myself to pay.

P.S.
I look at my meager text and I understand that I want to write more.

But some kind of sensation arises, as if I'm writing an insight. Does this happen to you? When there is no feedback - when no one says Okay, Clara, we hear you, we see you.

And even if not to praise, you can scold. But when it's not there it's like I'm shouting into the void. And the question arises - why scream?

Why scream into the room where no one is?
And the same thing occurs in my life, why should I do anything if everything has no effects on my life?

Let me do this or that action - nothing will change. So why then do?

This is a strange sensation. Have you ever had such a thing?