#sadjoke : (

oh dear you are not coping well at all are you.
I wonder if your buddies are really your buddies. I suspect that the one you desire does not like you very much.
Why else would he have set you up like that. He is a smart guy alright, I like him, he is honest, upfront. I respect those qualities.
On the other hand, your entitled sniveling disingenuous nature is repulsive.