Random Acts of Sperm

I’ve always been a gypsy... always tethered to return to Alaska... always for respite... always ready to retreat into the vast, raw, n a t u r a l s p a c e that ‘got me and I got it’....

I’ve circumnavigated the globe in more lifetimes than this one. On foot, bicycle and car searching for what matched the natural beauty that ‘I came from...’

A part of me always remained frozen... glacial... separate... and ‘not sure how to act out here’...

The adventure of the Access Consciousness tools invites us to look at anything we’ve made ‘solid, real and true’...

‘What’s the value of this?’, I asked myself. ‘What do I love about this story?’ ‘How is this serving me?’ ‘What else is possible?’

‘What would melting look like?’ ‘Would I like to try it?’

‘When IS the last time you melted, Erin...?’

We never know what it’s going to look like or how it’s going to show up.

And, less than 2 yrs ago I found out I have a sister who was also from Alaska.

#randomactsofsperm I call us. 😊

We come from a dad she’s never met. One that never chose to live beyond his own hell. His touches weren’t kind and he almost killed.

As a child, I would say, ‘Why hate him? Nobody could hate him more than he hates himself.’

From him we exist.

And, recently, I’ve chosen to go beyond existing. To be incredible. The incredible me I truly be. To really ask, be curious and choose.

‘What grand and glorious life am I truly ready to choose, create and BE? Now?’

I just asked and wondered for 40,000 miles.

Now. I’ve met my brilliant sister. And she melted me.

I’m grateful we exist. And I’m grateful we go beyond existing. She’s always been different - too.

Brilliance exists in everything.

Even in insanity, flowers grow.

You just have to know what you know and keep going. #neverquit#nevergivein #nevergiveup