DROWNING [A comic where I try to explain how I feel]
Well, it's been a while since I last posted anything, huh. A little over two weeks or something like that, lol. Oh well, we're just going to ignore that (^▽^;)
Hey! how are you guys? I'm fine, drawing from time to time, sleeping a lot, the usual. Today I want to show you this attempt of doing a comic.
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This comic took me four days to draw it maybe, I'm not sure. Honestly I think I could have done it in two days, but I haven't felt very motivated to draw lately. At first I didn't really know what to draw but at the moment I thought of something, it was as if my hands were disconnected from my brain. It has been a couple of frustrating weeks for me.
But, a few days ago I was able to make my ideas begin to take shape. I thought of several ideas to make a comic, I discarded some them because I didn't like how they were doing (this is the third attempt) and finally I was able to do something decent, and basically this is the result.
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Basically, this is me trying to explain how I feel
These last few years have been a little hard not just for me but also for those around me, especially last year. For many reasons I felt the pressure of a somewhat uncertain future. It is difficult to explain how frustrating it is to know that things are not going to be as you came to think they would be. Things change, and that is not necessarily a bad thing. But things have changed so much that I don't know where to go anymore, I have had to deal with a feeling of helplessness for a long time, and somehow that has made me grow as a person.
At some point in this whole experience, I had to shut up the little girl inside of me who wanted to play at being kids forever. I realized that I had locked myself in a bubble for a long time, and that now I had to blow it up myself and face the reality. I would say that it has been a couple of years of personal discovery, of asking questions about myself that I never had the courage to do.
In short, I have been forced to face the real me. All my failures, my virtues, my insecurities, my limitations. It's not a very nice experience, but I think that some point we all have to go through that.
It's been hard, but honestly I think it could be worse. So more than complaining I just try to get something out of all this
The process
For this third attempt, I actually planned what I was going to do and you can see here in this very detailed sketch what my plan was, along with the color palette that I used.
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I know, I know, It seems like I know what I'm doing. (σﾟ∀ﾟ)σ
Then I just started making my sketch.
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Now I'm just going to show you, guys a little bit of the coloring process.
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I'm not going to lie it was a lot of work to do this, more than anything because I did not know how to draw some things, In the end I decided to go for a very simple style. Also I was not sure how to give that effect as if I were underwater, bu, it was also a lot fun, so I hope you like it. (✿╹◡╹)
-Love, Eddy ♡
This is a perfect presentation of your emotions. I can imagine it took you long to finalize. It's not only very personal but also the idea is so beautiful that it must be very hard to work on it when you don't feel inspired. I am glad that you realized you were not true to yourself and that you unlock your 'self' and let it shine :) Thank you for sharing. Your story made me smile.
Indeed was kind hard to draw all this, but I think I had to press myself to do it. Somehow I needed to do something that was difficult for me, just to be able to get out of this kind of artistic block that I had.
Honestly this is a a topic that I usually avoid talking because I find it very difficult to express how I feel. I still think that I haven't explained myself completely, but certainly putting into words what I feel, helps a lot.
I'm glad that you liked it :D
I think we all feel like that from time to time. Sometimes we just don't know how to stop and get back above the water.
It's really hard to get there, but I think that the first step to come out is to admit that we are
sinking.
It is incredible that your situation is or has been so similar to mine, as I read I felt very identified with you, I felt exactly the same and even worse but little by little I managed to get out of my shell and begin to grow and mature.
I also draw and understand very well what you mean with the state of mind .. When so many things happen in my head it is difficult to have a motivation that makes me draw .. I can draw very well but if my mood is not It is the best you will notice in my art. You despite going through a bad time have created something really spectacular, I loved the colors you used, and the gif I liked a lot, besides your previous publications are great .. A big hug @lovesoldier69 !
Realmente es una situación que nunca pensé que tendría que enfrontar, pero como bien dije en el post creo que es algo por lo que tenemos que pasar todos, quizá algunos tengamos esa transición un poco mas atropellada que otros, pero lo importante es aprender algo. Creo que siempre hay que mantener la frente en alto, y tratar de sacar lo mejor de cada situación :)
P.d: Me tome el tiempo de ver tu perfil. Haces dibujos increíbles, ademas siempre me hace ilusión encontrar hermanos venezolanos por aquí :D
No sabia que hablabas español, como todo lo que publicas es en ingles xD
Así es, esa es la manera de pensar ;) Y muchas gracias por pasarte por mi blog me alegra que te gusten mis dibujos..
Jajaja digamos que no encontré lo que buscaba dentro de la comunidad hispanohablante, termine conociendo gente muy buena onda pero que hablaban ingles, así que eme aquí XD
I believe this drawing did help in conveying most of your feelings at that point (I can relate to those crazy feelings) and you must have felt even better after making this beautiful piece. It's never easy to open up about what's going on on the inside of us, but I am glad you have found a way to let yours out. And yeah, sometimes, all we need do is to just enjoy the water and not stress too much over it. There, the "problem" somewhat becomes a blessing...
You did put in a whole lot of work in here, there is a bit of humor in there but still, the message did reach home! And the painting too, it is just on point. I love this....
It is difficult to say what goes on your mind when you're not even sure what is happening. But, it makes me happy to know that somehow I actually managed to express the way I feel.
Certainly there is a bit of humor there. Over the years I've realized that I do that every time I have to talk about something serious. I think it works for me, it helps me not to feel overwhelmed by this kind of thing.
I'm really glad that you like it, and thank you very much for your kind words, my friend :)
I think everybody has such moments when we come to the point and we drained completely by our study, work, sometimes family stress and you think there is no way out I know some people decide to end their lives bit this is very selfish. I know it is easy to say but we just need to get a deep breath in, to make a plan and just go ahead to fulfill the plan. I believe everything in our own hands and there are so many people around us who is ready to come for help even just to be a listener. I like the comic and the way how you wanted to share your moment of your life. This is very helpful to tell aloud and everything will be looking less worse then it is.
Good luck and do not give up :)
I have learned over the years that there is always someone who will at least listen to you. It is difficult for me to share this kind of things with others, so I usually talk about this when I can not bear it anymore, I know, it is not a very healthy habit but little by little I have learned to let things flow.
Luckily I always end up finding the way to see the good side of things :)
I can so relate to this. After quitting my job to be a stay-at-home-mom, I feel like I've been drowning and slowly losing myself. What hurts me more is that nobody seems to understand what I'm going through. But I do get to spend a lot of time with my son and that makes me happy. So like you said. I shouldn't dwell on the misery, rather I should ride the waves and enjoy it. :)
You know, I think sometimes people believe they know what's best for us based on their own experiences, I think it's a mistake to do that. Each person has a different reality, different circumstances in their life, different ways of dealing with problems.
At the end of the day the only person who knows what you need to be happy is yourself. As long as you do what YOU think will make YOU happy, everything will be ok :)
Beautifully done. As for the personal part of the blog, it’s all within the process of just being human, vulnerable and a self discovery. Absolutely loved these cute illustrations.
I'm really glad you like it. Thanks a lot for your kind words :)
This was really interesting. Does your inner state changed after you created this? In any way, better or worse?
Surely my mood improved, I think that from the moment I started drawing I felt better. I wouldn't know how to explain this but, sometimes I feel guilty when I'm not able to draw and when I finally do it it is as if I were letting go of a huge weight off my shoulders.
So yes, I'm much better now :)
It is not easy coming to terms with your feelings and also being honest in showing it to the world.
Someone somewhere is struggling and your experience can help that person.
I love your comic, each picture depicts the emotion conveyed in the dialogue perfectly. Another beautiful one from you. Lovely use of colours too.
I hope so, I hope that the little I have learned these years will help someone else, at least to know that they're not the only one who feels this way.
I'm glad that you like my comic, I put a lot of love in it :D
Hi @lovesoldier69,
Great work on the comic. Sorry to hear about your struggles, but appreciate you sharing them with us all here.
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Wow, it makes me really happy to know that the effort that I put into this comic has not gone unnoticed. I think the only thing I have to say about this pos is that I try to be as real as I could :)