I've definitely been in the couch surfing position trying to figure out my next move after heavy hits. You seem mentally tough for he most part and you can definitely get though this. Despite your current situation try to maintain optimistic thoughts whenever you can, meditate or reflect as many positive memories to help you though. Great thing are sure to come your way. I don't know you but I see greatness for you. Keep your head up, stay woke and be blessed Big Dawg @rondonson. Keep your vision alive.