The Dark days

My struggle with myself

Recently, I have been struggling with my performance or let's say myself.

After my Startup failed, I was jobless for months, it was hard for me to find a job, then finally with help of my very dear friend, I got a job. The day I got the job, I felt someone who just met me once is highly confident in me, and he is offering a job for a decent package for someone of my age. And here I am, who does not have confidence in myself.

Now, this is not the turning point of the story where the good part starts, actually, it is the opposite. I started my job on a high and ended up doing very bad and was shifted to another company, and again I failed to match my competence.

So where I stand now are my dark days!! I have a month left in this job and I will be jobless after a month again. Now What I do after this is a question for another time!

I understand many aspects of things going around me.
I ain't depressed. I am procrastinating, I do not think beyond my system 1, rely on system 1 totally.
Waste a lot of time, anyone even very small negative thought crushes me down!

Now my question to the Steemit community is, What should I do to get back myself? How do you love yourself? How do you think about your capabilities?