I can absolutely agree with everything you said, but being an Aspie, the entire world around me feels dysfunctional until I journey out into uncomfortable places and make it comfortable...or at least bearable. For me, there is always an imbalance. Interacting, being sociable (in real life engagements), even smiling sometimes, is all physically exhausting. My nature is to stay in the dark place and lash out - but I've had to nurture a more positive stance to find balance and put suffering and negativity in its place. But you're right - I am a different person - a better person - because of the battle.