Hey, everyone. It's been quite some time since my last post. I figured I should pop in and at least let you know I'm alive and well for the most part. Since the beginning of May I've been recovering from extreme loss and grief due to the passing of one of my closest friends and business partner, @samrisso. And while that alone would be difficult for anyone, I have had an exceptionally hard time since his passing triggered many symptoms of PTSD which I had not dealt with in quite a few years. And since Risso was my business partner and employer, my family's financial situation took a turn for the worst and it happened rather quickly.

To be frank, I feel as if I keep using Risso's death as one big excuse at this point, and I'm growing quite tired of always going there in my mind whenever I evaluate what's going on in my life; however, I cannot help recognize where and when so many things started going south. I found myself having to figure out how to either save the business he and I had built, which I failed at, or having to figure out how to make enough of a living to take care of my family immediately, which has been an arduous task on its own coupled with the emotional turmoil I was experiencing.

Now it has been three months since his passing and things seem to be somewhat leveling out. I haven't exactly replaced the kind of money I was making when Risso was alive, but I am making a paycheck. I can't say I'm over the tremendous grief I feel when I'm reminded of the loss of someone I loved so dearly who also helped make my family's life more comfortable in numerous ways; what I can say is that I am able to make my way through each passing day now without the heavy lethargy, deep depression, needing to cry at random moments and whatever else has been blocking my forward movement and growth.

Now the good news! One week from now we are going to be finished moving to a new place where we will be connecting an old friend and some new ones. We have made arrangements to stay at a vegan-run farm with lots of animals and a family with kids slightly younger than ours. Once again we will be living outdoors immersed in nature as we have found that to be the most peaceful and healthiest lifestyle for us and our children. This farm is about a 30 minute drive from a permaculture farm owned by a friend of ours who will be paying us to help with landscaping, growing food and household chores. We are also meeting with the director of a larger farm in the area which also functions as an art and educational space. The plan is to move onto this farm and engage in an exchange of work for room and board.

For the first time in a few months we're very excited about what's to come. The near future is looking very positive. We're looking forward to new scenery, new friends, new places to explore. We're looking forward to connecting with other families like us and seeing our children form relationships with other kids. We're looking forward to being able to afford our daily expenses again. We're looking forward to having quality time as a family and having time to once again heal and grow. It's not been an easy road, but the path ahead seems to have been cleared and navigable. We have some great friends who've helped to make this time as easy as possible and for that we are extremely grateful, particularly @msp-waves @soundwavesphoton and @liz.writes (there are many more who I cannot tag since they don't have a Hive account). We also look forward to being able to pay it all forwards as we keep on trucking. Thank you all for taking the time to read this post, I hope it finds you well.

For those of you anticipating the return of #PostUp on @msp-waves every Thursday, I ask you be just a tad more patient. I had to wait until we're settled and our daily routines are smoothed out in order to commit again to a regular schedule. It may be a few more week, but it will be much sooner than later. You must understand that I started this show with Risso so it's going to be a very emotional return to the airwaves. The first show back will be a tribute to him along with his fiancé, @liz.writes and her cofounder of the #samrissofoundation, Anya Schwab. Also I want to be able to relaunch one of my weekly music podcasts along with this. I do appreciate your support and can't wait to start curating all of your amazing content again.