Someone wants to change his fate

 
Alone in the morning looked at the bright day with cool air. Make me always think, why is this beautiful world that You created for us. Make me always ask, what do you expect when I create and all this beauty. One thing I really do not understand but makes me sincerely stated that you really love me very much. It's a beautiful thing that I got from you. But what of my reply, I even neglected what you assigned to me. Inattentive alone is not enough, even I do things that You forbid through your book and apostle. What can I say about all this, all become a taddish dish of wine. I want to live a thousand years so that I can fix all my conduct over the years. But can it guarantee that I will not go back to doing the same thing a second time, for the third time or even for the umpteenth time. Absolutely no guarantee, because I'm just a human being where sin and mistake. Shame once myself when I made a mistake, then kneel on your night but the next day I made the same mistake. I am so ashamed of myself to apologize again, that I am one of the most hypocritical human beings. I always say I've done what You ordered but I do not know what I did because of my love for Mu or I only do as my duty only. What a shame my self is Rabb. Ya Rabb give me a little strength to counteract the temptations of your creatures who always invite me into the kebathilan. Help me to be with the people of your Apostle in heaven whom You have provided for him. Add my love to your Lord Rabb so that I can always do whatever You command me to do. In order for me to always worship because of my love for Mu.