Yes, indeed: I'm in full agreement with many of the comments pertaining to your PTSD.
Your raw delivery compels me to trust your writing as a legitimate expression of you, compellingly narrated with a flair for shock and awe. Specifically, I would like to learn what the trauma was and even more importantly how did you regard it during and then after, and how do you consider it now? Our personal perspectives are kaleidoscopes that change what we see depending on where we are in relation to the stimulating cue... I could write a dozen different stories about the shit I've been through, and each story would sound like it was coming from a different observer, and yet they would all come from the same author, from a different relational stance and regard for the event.
Please keep writing - there's never yet been a word of yours I've regretted reading 🤝