Since we have no contact except through this type of public forum, and there are multiple people telling me how you never want to hurt me or Quinn, and have felt sad about the pain you are causing, that you really love me as a sister and know I wouldn't be angry about all of this, I just thought I'd drop you a little note to let you know that I have lost complete respect for you LaVonne!

This devious behavior, deliberately lying to our faces and to others in this post and behind our backs, not answering messages or making any attempt to communicate on any level whatsoever about this built up anger you are carrying around--not even once, breaching personal trust of even the sisterhood we used to share, taking advantage of and working multiple "friends" for your own personal gain and attention, and taking this to a public with absolutely no attempt whatsoever to even personally share the trauma you are feeling but putting off onto others is beyond despicable.

Your actions speak loudly of how you ran away--not because anyone was doing anything to you as you always had the opportunity to leave (and be supported in that) at anytime you wished, but because you are still running from the inner turmoil that tears you up inside (and you know what I’m talking about—which of course I could share if that’s what we’re trying to do here!), and since you can’t get away from it and haven’t for decades because it is potent and real and affects all aspects of your life and is extremely difficult to face, I know that from knowing you.

So though I’m not actually surprised now that you ran (though I was hurt and astounded at the time) because tuning into what is really happening with you I see that you are still sick from all of the messed up things that have happened to you especially in your childhood and when not being able to get away from it, it is easier to cover up the pain by secretly running and pointing fingers at someone else than to "dig deeper"—pun intended—and seeing why you are in alignment with the life and experiences you have created.

It is true that I still love you, and I think you need the love more now than ever, but I don’t respect you, appreciate you, trust you, or care to be around you so two-faced and deceitful, pretending to be a friend all the while plotting and scheming behind my back.

So much has changed—your being an instigator of drama and intentional intense pain is beyond fathomable, and unfortunately a true showing of your character I did not see.

I will, however, still hold space for your healing as I know the deep and dark secrets you hold inside are tormenting you. I’m still willing to have a personal conversation with you, and wish the best for your releasing this pain and for your healing.