I just want to tell you, tell you about what happened to me recently ... Though the end of this story is sad, it was still TELLY !!!

It started a little more than a month ago. It all began with what the guy wrote to me, it would be more correct to say a man, he is 28 years old. He began the conversation with compliments. As a girl it became nice to me, I politely answered him, although from the beginning of the conversation I wanted to send him, but something did not give, something prompted my interest in him ... As a result, the next day he found me on another site and began to insistently write .. but even from the first conversation it was felt that his intentions were banal ... and he did not intend to hide it ...

openly talked about my beauty, appearance, admired her, talked about the figure, about dresses, heels ... in general it became clear that his interest was only in female beauty ... this he shook me, the shaking grew and poured out in my I repelled such an approach to my personality, but he was persistent, too ... I was bored with his short-sighted vision of my appearance only, he insisted at that time on the photographs, full-length, explaining everything to those who were afraid that when meeting I will be worse than in the photos ....

My discontent grew, but he could not rude him, because of his perseverance, as well as my some interest in him ... although he tried several times, he pretended not to notice, continued to write, eventually I got bored, I decided that the end will be put only by a meeting with him ... there was even a hope that I would not like him ... but nobody expected such a turn of events ...

In general, we met. The meeting even turned out to be spontaneous, he just suggested in the evening to come for me ... I reluctantly agreed ... although in truth it was for him that I showed that reluctantly, and she was in anticipation of the meeting .... During all the time I met him, I did not abandon my policy of touch and remoteness ... but his persistence eventually brought her to nothing ...

The meeting was scheduled for 8 pm ... he drove to my house ... called the intercom ... I went out, we saw each other ... one of his first words was that I'm beautiful, and understandable business, it did not surprise me, although at that time I still did not understand that this would be his only motive ...

We got into the car, went to the cafe .... the evening was wonderful ... I saw this person from the inside, oh, this was a wonderful man, so interesting, fascinating .... when he started talking, I held my breath, I was interested every thought, every word he uttered ... all his thoughts were so reasonable, adequate, intelligent, analytical, wise ... she wanted to listen to him and listen, talk with him ...

escorting me home he said that I liked him very much that I am very beautiful, much prettier than he expected .... but not a word about me as a man .... I also expressed my opinion about him as a man, mine it even surprised him, and I just said that for me it's more important ...

Well, after the second meeting, he liked me even more, began to pull towards him .... but repelled the fact that he was drawn to me, but rather dragged not to me, but to my body ... already at the second meeting he wanted to kiss me and openly told me this ... but I did not tolerate this, I immediately told him that this would not happen, explaining everything by the great difference in age .... but this did not stop him, he continued write, insist on a new meeting ... I understood everything, I saw his intentions, I knew what it would lead to, I knew what to do ...

I wrote everything as it is, we agreed that he would leave me alone .... BUT WAS ALREADY LATE .... I was drawn to him so much that I gave a move back ... I wrote to him again and we continued to communicate. .. I was like in a fog, naively believed and hoped that he might be interested in me and something else .... eh fool

The conversation continued, the meeting followed, everything was getting worse ... kissing him in the car, at home on the couch, his hands were walking my body, touching everything ... I could not resist, could not let go back because I knew that it will lead to an end ... only forward ... But still I tried to keep the situation under control, and how to slow down this process and delay the moment of his triumph, because I realized that the closeness with him will be the end ... I did not give touch the body under the clothes, demanded the inviolability of the breast, held it as she could .... but every time m it was all more difficult, he insisted, and I gave up, could not resist the feelings for him, I wanted to drown in his arms ...

In the penultimate meeting, one phrase brought me back to earth ... the phrase "If not, then I'll waste time in vain" ... I woke up, had to admit the reality ... but woke up late, realized that there was no way back, everything was too far away went ... whatever I wanted, I would have to do it ... I gave hope ... this was my biggest mistake ... there is no way back ... it was disgusting at heart, from the realization of this, but there was no choice, there was no hope ... there was only one thing: to do this and to part forever ... to part because there is nothing further ... only the devastation of the soul and the Haniyeh person ... and I knew it, I finally understood it ...

And I decided so, having done this, I will tell him everything directly, directly into my eyes ... but I could not ... say so and did not dare, and there was no suitable moment ...

It was Saturday ... the penultimate day of vacation. We met in the evening, he drove after me to the center of the city and we went to him ... both were happy ... I- because I was next to the man of my dreams, he- because he was in anticipation of selling his plans ... they talked the road, I, as always, admired his thoughts with his conversation, enjoyed it ...

But now the moment of truth has come ... they rose to him upstairs .. they took off their outer clothes, settled on the couch ... further kisses, the rapid pulling off of my clothes ... I did not resist as before, yielded without saying a word ... smiling , it was good, because I was close to my beloved ... my soul was suffering, and I succumbed to all his movements, he tried to make me feel good, but his touch did not bring more pleasure as much as before, because I did not take them sincerely .. . But the body was still nice, to deny it is stupid ... but then it was ol, I endured, endured for him, understood that I should do this, no matter what ... I did not need the pleasure, I did not get it ... the main thing was that he was happy and happy ... I was only happy because he was there, and no pain prevented my happiness ... After we lay and talked, he said, I listened ... it was very interesting to tell him, and it was interesting to listen to ... only at that moment maybe started something spiritual between us ... but as it began, it ended ... it was time for me to go home ...

Say goodbye to the eyes and did not find the opportunity .. probably all the same because she was tormented by doubts ... she doubted until the last ... but coming home, coming to her senses, realized that there is no other way out, this is the only correct solution .... sat down at the computer and wrote:

"Thank you for everything ... I'm very glad that I met you." But today's meeting was the last ... I decided so.

I wanted to tell you this when I met you, but I could not ... I just can not, I'm sorry, I can not have sex with someone I hardly know, and who does not care about anything except my appearance and body. At me all the same there are any vital principles through which I can not cross ... ".

If there are people who believe that I acted incorrectly, unsubscribe, I'm very interested in your opinion .... as well as people who agree with me ... tell me: could I have done something wrong?