First Day on Steemit - Diaries of a Suicidal Teen.

Hello Guys,
I am Cryptogenic and I will try to talk to you guys about my life.
I am a young suicidal teen who is trying to survive.
Live is difficult enough. And talking to you guys makes it even more difficult.
I don't know what I'm doing here and why I'm talking to you guys.
Maybe I am scared of what will happen if I don't talk about it. Maybe I want to help someone who also is going trough a hard time.
But how can I help someone if I can't help my self?
I'm struggling every day again to keep the blade away from my pretty arms.
My pretty arms...
I don't know. Apparently someone is looking to kill me.
For those who don't know I have more enemies than friends.
Lol, I don't even have friends. Is it because people don't like me?
Or is it because I'm afraid? But afraid from whom? People? "Friends"?
I don't know.
The blade is looking at me. It is evil. It asks for my blood.
Is the blade my friend or my enemy?
I will try to survive tonight tomorrow is another day.
If I don't post tomorrow I'll be dead.
Have a Happy, Perfect, Normal live!
Your dear, CryptoGenic.