That's the thing about suicide; it only has to be a good idea for a few minutes.
I remember years ago, I took a breakup pretty hard. It all went pear shaped while I was at work, armed.
I never contemplated using it, but I recall being struck by how terrifyingly quickly I could do so.
It would only need to be a 'good' idea for a few seconds.
Glad to hear your dad is still around.
@Holoz0r is running an art contest in Laura's memory.
The theme of the first round is 'Darkness' and there's some quality entries already lodged.
The reason I'm running the competition is to encourage more steemians to produce consistent, quality content, and to make sure that Laura's 'ghost' haunts this place for as long as possible. She was an incredible role model and example for steemians all over the world, and we are a lesser place without her.