The Risk

The human being is a kind of biological machine capable of using their intelligence in order to solve problems of a variable nature and create tools that facilitate the realization in positive terms of any company that sets itself the goal, also has the advantage of "self-centered discernment", that is to say, he develops ideas in his "I", in a few words he can think and analyze. Some with varied criteria and certain ideological tendencies assure that we also have gifts of the heavenly divinity when they assure that at the end of our days we can resurrect or reincarnate, as if that were not enough with all those advantages that could make us feel like owners of the planet we enjoy the power to "choose" between good or evil, to choose between walking in darkness stalking and raising praise to evil, run over anyone who dares to get in our way in order to obtain what is desired or walk along paths of light, have the certainty that equality between every human being must be the premise to live in harmony. But the important and true thing is the "decision" in itself the possibility of "choosing." The human being is debated daily between the "yes" or the "no", as in a command line of a flowchart or a fork at the end of a path, "right or left", which path would be asked. For many it could be trivial or commonplace in their lives but the fact of "choosing" represents in some ways a "risk" of greater or lesser scale depending on the magnitude of the problem that arises but not everyone has that necessary decision power For certain purposes, who has not been negatively affected by wrong decisions? Perhaps many, but in contrary cases many have had triumphant outings of greater or lesser scale in their small daily battles. And the others? Those who do not act what we could say about them, those who do not take risks, many say they do not lose ... but neither do they win.
That is the meeting point in the story of a man who had woken up at some time in the night, was lying in his bed with his arms open forming a cross, on his left arm there was something he did not know and mentally began to make assumptions .

• OMG! What could this be?
  Because of the darkness prevailing in the place, that poor subject did not distinguish what had invaded his bed and said.
• It is something hairy, black and from what I observe is asleep, to think that many men will be asleep with their wives, but ‚this is not my case because I am single, this may be some animal, a cat maybe ... no , it's not a cat, it's very
  heavy, I could get my arm out quickly ... no, I still don't know what this animal can be, it could hurt me, it sure is faster than me! -.
  This was a long time, without moving and at the same time thinking that he could do to free himself from what overwhelmed him, and panic was dominating him, his body exhaled sweat in a copious and desperate way, he began to speculate.
• If I take it strongly by the neck with my right hand until it suffocates it, but! Where does the neck ?, My God, what do I do ?, How could this reach my bed ?, If I could know what time of The night is, I could wait until dawn and “this” gets out of here in the same way it arrived! If I had had some social life with my neighbors at this time I would know who this animal is but not! ... I and my apathy for others, be calm and tell me "this is the pet of the guy" what would scare and matter resolved!
  He thought for a moment and told himself.
• What if this is not an animal? Is it a punishment for making fun of superstitious people? How inconvenient now I wanted to urinate, I must endure, this is a fright is not an animal, this pod does not breathe, it is not a living being, the devil! ... If it is the devil, I must not move! -
  And so, that poor man desperate and nervous, felt that his genitals burned so much to hold the urine, motionless and terrified by what happened to him, he felt that every second was eternal and endless, with his eyes fixed towards the ceiling of the room closed his eyes strongly holding the urge to urinate until ...
• I pissed myself, I couldn't take it anymore, than denigrating, like a little boy, I feel dizzy, I don't feel well! ... I have piss on my back! ... how low the human being can get !. .. I have to do something! ... I know what I will do! ... I will pray, I will pray! ... Our Father! ... what! ... you are in the Heaven! ... hallowed be your name, lost! ... No! ... eh! ...! give us the! ... not so! ... I will try again, our Father that you are in heaven santi! ... ficado is ... be you nom ... I do not remember, I do not remember our Father ... I am a man without faith ... I am lost! -
  In silence he began to cry, he had found himself, he was discovering the kind of being he was and even more terrified, his body and his heart began to palpitate quickly and within if it was said.
• How many times had he remembered God? When had he asked for something with fervor? How many times had he thanked him for something? ... Never, never and now I try to do it and I don't know how! I no longer feel the arm, I have it asleep! ... it is rising it is a demon! ... skeleton face, bull horns, cat eyes, it rises to the ceiling, it is rising, monkey legs , I go crazy, I don't know how to pray, I scream, I run! ... I pissed myself, the urine is hot, I'm thirsty! ... it's a fish the dead is a fish, the sign of the cross !, which is that ?, how is it done ...
  Think something else! ... I am afraid, very afraid! ... I am thirsty, my throat burns, it sees me, the dead man sees me! ... he mocks me! ... he takes my tongue! ... tongue is a horned snake! ... it's the devil! ... it's the devil! ... i go crazy! ... i want to run! ... no I have feet! ... this thing is a cat! ... it's growing! ... it shows me my teeth! ... it spit on me! ... its saliva is hot, hell is hot! ... hell is hot! ... hell is hot! ... think otherwise! ... think otherwise! ...! Think! ... I don't want to hear myself think, no I want to think anything, I want to wake up, witch! ... She is a witch, take away that idea! ... Take away that idea! ... Now if you think of God! Isn't it a little late? who said that? ... why is there another little voice in my mind ...? God forgives sooner or later! ... I will close my eyes and ask him so hard that he will listen to me I know he will ! ...-
  The man closed his eyes full of tears, stretched out with his arms open forming a cross and there was still that thing that terrified him, he did not understand how he had got there, but he was there and that was his reality had no courage to risk ... he felt lonely ... terribly alone ... with his demons ... with his angels ... with his delusions ... not even the gentle night breeze prevented him from sweating, he felt an evil drowsiness that stunned his entire body . He drew an ugly grin on his face and put his right hand to his chest ...
  The next day.
• Friend! ... my condolences I came as soon as I could! ...-
• Thank you, what pain I don't know how it happened! ... the doctor told me it was a heart attack ... but he never suffered from the heart ... I'm stunned, what worried me was his lack of memory was very forgetful! ... what things friend died while I slept in his arm! ...-
  End
  March 13 2001