Hey brother, I know what you're going through.
My father passed not too long ago and I have battled the same emotions as my family grieved.

Sincere condolences to you and know that you can come back anytime and we'd still be here to welcome you with open arms. Take your time to mourn readjust your life (I know it's not easy) and if you need any help at all, you can always come to us.