Wow! I knew a good bit but I never knew it got this bad. I just want to give you a ginormous hug. I'm so glad you came back and the key words that you used to tell what it meant to you are so empowering, and on top of that they brought tears to my eyes. This group really is strong and my gosh so beneficial in so many ways, you telling this all just proved it. Lots of love to you. Blew me away with your honesty to all to see as well. You are a fighter and with a great family around you. Life roughs us up sometimes but it's the ability to get up, dust off, and keep pushing that shows our true spirit I believe it's getting better from here on out.