I feel so bored today

Today I feel a lot burned out because of some of my family opened with my father is not good at all I have tried to be honest and respectful ever since I was born I have never things in the relief but in my little things my dad passed away and I was very bad. I love my family very much but sometimes there can be small debates I do not know what to do I am a loner living alone I've never started enjoying myself I have some financial difficulties. I participated in steemit as a money-making, but there was not even something here. I was not disappointed again. I do not know what to do