Tell me about it.
I sometimes wake up thinking WTF am I doing here lol.
I feel you on the difficult uphill from here, but it will be all worth it once you can support yourself and still enjoy life. I have looked into the Amazon affiliate program and it seems you can make some good money.
Good luck with your journey!
Hope all goes better than planned
I'll send you my link to my YouTube channel once I get something good on there.