I wish you love and awesomeness. We really need to talk soon, so you can pour those things fully out. It is a tough road. You are in my prayers. With hopes and prayers, his case can be saved. I will visit you in chat soon. It's so so so tough, i wont lie. My dad's case is there. I so want to talk to him or hug him or something but he may not be allowed to travel cos of health. I still pray. Sometimes i tire out totally in a fight cos in reality, if someone suffers all their life and more critical suffering comes again out of nowhere, then what's the fight about. Many times, it doesn't make sense and some eat suffering like its daily bread