6 Months Without You

in #ulog6 years ago

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It’s been 6 long months without you.
Without hearing your voice.
Without seeing your comment on everything I ever posted.
The same two comments, always-
“Good one”
“Cool one”
Simple never-ending support in your voice.
I miss you and it’s the deepest ache in my heart, the biggest sadness I’ve known so far.

It’s been 6 short months without you.
I can still remember every moment of your last days.
I still get the flashbacks.
I still don’t regret being there for your
Last
Moments
I can still see your beautiful face, still hear your voice.
I can still feel your hand stroking my hair for the last time like I was a 3 year old on your lap.

It’s been 6 months. I need you to know that I’m doing okay. That we’re doing okay. Our lives changed forever when we lost you, but I need you to know that you’re still right at the heart of them. Right at the heart of us.

I miss you. I love you mum.


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I am loving this post!
You have such depth of feeling,, lo
ve, and emotion... I am in awe!
Well done, E. Well done, tonight

Thank you so much Blue. Like I said to Dreem on her comment, you three have seen me through some of the darkest of times, and I can't thank you enough for your friendship.

E x

well - tears are streaming down my face.

This was beautiful E. My throat is so tight.
I don't even really have words to do this justice. I'm so sorry you lost your mom, honey. I wish I could just sit on the couch with you and hear story after story about her.

i giggled about the "nice post"

Isn't it funny? from strangers - we roll our eyes. But I bet from her... it was like a sweet, simple, quiet bit of faith in you.

Love you my darling

Thank you so much for all your friendship and support as I've re-built my life- you, @bluefinstudios and @saffisara have been my liferafts.

It's funny- but I used to roll my eyes every time she did it. It was a running joke in our house, and has become a loving catchphrase to remember her by between me and OH. It was gently irritating- but those are the bits you miss. I'd give anything to see her comments again :) Now I see it for what it was, sweet, simple and unswerving faith and support- exactly like you said. She was such a gentle soul.

Love you too. Thank you- and sorry for the tears. E x

hehehehee yeah - it's funny the things you miss.
oh you have me crying again LOLOLOL

dont' be sorry for the tears. tears are good.

and i'm celebrating what a special woman she was to make my E exactly who she is today <3

Beautiful, and I am sorry for your loss.

Thank you so much Heather E x

Thank you - very gratefully received
E x

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Beautifully written! And would you please tell me what a ulog is?

Thank you so much!
Ulogging is a movement founded by @surpassinggoogle- and it is a post about you and your day, you and your hopes, you and your dreams, you and your fears... anything to do with you and your life really! It's a great way of mining the human- and always always having original content to post about.
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Thanks so much for the explanation!!

You're welcome! Going to give it a go?

Greatest love.. i have no words.. but just let me hug you!

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Thank you for your hug- much needed! I was so lucky to have a mum I love so much and who gave me so much love that missing her is a physical pain. I'm lucky. I count myself blessed.

E x

Its hard to lose someone you love dearly.. no amount of words can console how you are feeling.. and the love for our parents is beyond question.. and no doubt wherever they might be, they will always be watching over us.

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oh wow eveningart! you are torturing us by bringing out such strong emotions with your heartfelt, powerful words! whew.

Sorry Janton :) I must admit- I was in a bit of a flood as I was writing this. I can't read it back now without dissolving again- but it felt good to put it out there and mark the day. E x

oh I totally understand and I'm sure everyone does. Well hopefully it was somewhat cathartic for you.

Had to wait to write to you about this post now for two days. I am still so touched and in tears every time I return to your post, that I still don't find the right words.

I just want to hug you and stay quiet.

I love you @eveningart

Love you too @anutu. Thank you for your hugs- much needed and appreciated. Sorry for the tears x

Sending more hugs to you now @eveningart, can you feel it?
No one and nothing is ever lost in this universe. Energy is energy and stays energy. Love will stay forever, just like energy. I will never leave. It is just a moment, more a second on the mighty clock of all that is, that we cannot see it, with our eyes, but feel it, with our hearts.
xx